At the fragrance conference I felt when I heard all the ladies talking that I need to give all this shame and guilt and pain that I’ve always been carrying over to God and finally have some change and allow my self to heal and for the first time I believed it was possible. I went up to get prayed for and I wept like a baby and felt like my heart was broken in tiny pieces, I was even holding my heart because it felt so sore - it was as if all that pain that I put away so I could be strong and handle things was pouring out and my heart was feeling it. After a bit I suddenly felt peace and felt as if God was holding my heart and had made my heart whole again and for the first time felt positive energy running from my heart through my body. I felt so loved by Him. When I got home I felt like I had a fresh start and felt I wanted to be baptised to symbolise this.

I have so much hope again and I am excited for what God has planned for my life and my future cos I truly believe he is the God of the impossible and his blessing are endless and truly amazing and I want to live every second for him.

On Friday evening when Mel  Dyer was sharing, I could relate to what she was saying about her father.  Fifteen years ago I also lost my father suddenly, four days before his 60^th birthday. I had a revelation: I suddenly remembered that when I lost my father, I said that I would never ever love anyone again, like I loved my dad, because the pain of loosing him was too much. 

On Friday I realised the impact of what those words had meant in my life.

When I shared this with my husband, he admitted that after my dad died, there was a difference in our marriage, something was gone!

Our marriage and family has paid the price of this statement for 15 years.

When we think about the power of our words and how it can effect our lives and the lives of our family and friends either positively or negatively.

 A friend of mine gave her life to Jesus at the conference. 

I am very grateful and thankful that I attended the conference, each speaker shared and I find myself relating to so many of their testimonies this week.  Just been more aware of how satan slips into our thoughts unnoticed, and keeps us in bondage.

FRAGRANCE testimony… God is so faithful! I had such an expectation in my heart before Fragrance that God was going to meet me in a real and personal way and He did! During Friday night’s worship I was able to surrender to God all my burdens (those worries I knew about, but also those I didn’t even know I was carrying!). As a woman, mom and wife we carry such a heavy load of worries and I sensed Jesus asking me to give it all to Him. I could literally feel the load lifting off my shoulders and I’m trusting Him with all the outcomes. As an oldest child in my family I have always tried to be the ‘perfect’ daughter and I was always very sensitive about what my parents said about me- especially their criticism. In my past God has dealt with this often, but on Saturday at the conference I realised after Zelda’s testimony that I still carry a lot of shame in my life. God affirmed me again and said that I am HIS perfect daughter. As a mom and wife I’m very hard on myself and I realised that the devil often use guilt in my life to distract me from who I really am in Christ. I learnt that I have to keep my focus on Jesus and His character- kind, gentle, full of love, slow to anger, to be able to be His fragrance in my world!! Chanelle’s talk also opened my eyes to the fact that I was giving the devil ‘authority’ in my life with regards to my thought life! I can only thank God for the privilege of being part of the Storehouse family and attending such a special conference! Next time I’m definitely inviting more family members and friends!